Hello World. I moved this week over Spring break. Thankfully, I had the week off. My third move in two years, post divorce. It’s been rather stressful. Don’t get me wrong, I love my new place, and the area is terrific. It’s very small, yet much closer to the beach. I have gone back and forth to Goodwill to donate stuff all week, and still, there are boxes of stuff, a closet full of stuff, and wall art that won’t work in the space. I think I may have to sell my digital piano, as it doesn’t fit anywhere. I sold my newish dining table and other things to decrease stuff. I am trying not to complain, as I truly love the area. And the neighbors on either side of my unit seem great. It’s just been tough, and I’m heading back to work next Monday. More to do, as my car is also having issues that must be addressed. Tomorrow, I’ll spend the day at the automotive shop. Timing, it feels as though I’m swimming upstream. I’m staying put for as long as possible!
The week before the move, I began having panic attacks – again. Haven’t had one in a while. I’m grateful they weren’t as bad as others. No ER or EMTs. I moved due to a feral cat situation at my last rental that never went away. The cats continued to poop on the property. A month before I decided to break the lease, the homeowner finally addressed it by putting rock on the front lawn and wire on the fence in the backyard as deterrents. It did very little, as the cats continued to show up, as though to say, “Stupid humans; we own the place.” The neighbor next door feeds and cares for the cats and has done so forever. So if anyone were to go, it was me. Homeowner refused to release me from the lease, which doesn’t end until July 1st. It has just sucked all around.
I hope that moving will eventually bring peace of mind. My car was starting to smell like cat poop – gross! Okay, so this is the end of my little rant. I know somewhere there’s a rainbow.
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Musings of a Taiwanese American Adoptee 
Sending rainbows, a whole sky of them
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Thank you so much.
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Moving inherently sucks. Never mind trying to do it under strained circumstances and with the other feral catshit of life getting in the way. Trust me, I know. But there definitely is another side of the fucking rainbow. I’ll be lookin’ for ya. 😉
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Thanks so much, Camilla. I appreciate you and your kind words. Wise woman indeed. Cheers to the fucking rainbow on the other side, lol.
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Deep breathing definitely centres the mind, … usually with me it focuses my mind on what’s causing the stress, … maybe I’m breathing wrong,? … but good on you, … and keep soldiering on, … that rainbows there, waiting to be jumped over… 💫🦋💫🌈💫
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Thank you! Yes, eyes on the rainbow 🙂 Thanks for visiting.
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I’m glad to hear that you moved from that situation. That couldn’t have been easy to endure. Closer to the beach… sounds perfect. The sound and smell of the beach will hopefully help you breathe easier during challenging times. Moving is a pain in the ass, but sounds like this was a necessary one. Peace.
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Thanks so much. I appreciate your words of support 🙂
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oh my goodness MJ, i didn’t want to say it in your prior posts but I am so glad you are out of that living situation – really happy to hear! and that you can insulate yourself from the effects of the homeowner not releasing you from the lease. like; what do they expect you to do with the problem you had there?? i swear, some people….
anyhow…you got through the critical juncture, you’re now in a better place and once things get settled, you can breathe. big things don’t happen on small timelines as they say. just get through it MJ, a win is a win even if it’s an ugly struggle! Mike
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Thank you for your kind words, Michael. I appreciate “big things don’t happen on small timelines.” And yes, just get through it. Thank you also for “a win is a win even if it’s an ugly struggle!” That will go a long way 🙂
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i know right?? when I first read that quote in January it resonated with me so much.
again, so happy you’re out of that place. you can only go up from here MJ 🙂
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