Good afternoon or evening wherever you may be. We’re heading into a new month very soon. I have some wishes for May that I hope come to pass. We shall see.
I’ve been struggling with hyper-fatigue for the past couple of months. It’s worsened and become more difficult in the last month to do anything other than make it in to work and back home. I boxed yesterday and felt really tired afterward. Usually, boxing energizes me, but yesterday, I needed to take several little breaks during class. I have very stiff, sore muscles today, as it’s been nearly 3 weeks since I last boxed due to fatigue. Stretching is in order, but there is a part of me that wants to do more strenuous exercise, like boxing. I miss it. The weekends are just not long enough for restoration, and most days, I wish I could just stay in bed and do nothing. As such, I haven’t been writing as much as I’d like to. Just no energy to think or for creativity. I’m hoping that by Fall, my schedule has changed so that I’ll have more time away from work, particularly summer, winter, and spring recesses. At times, I feel angry that work takes the better part of my day and energy, and yet one has to make a living. So, I do my best at self-care, although I eat way too much ice cream, lol.
We’re also in the first phase after a Full Moon, the Waning Gibbous phase. The moon’s energy is decreasing, and it’s a good time to focus inward. The waning period is associated with letting go of that which does not serve you, e.g., self-limiting beliefs or fears that are holding you back, changing one’s schedule! There will be a New Moon on May 8th. I love New Moons and like to set new intentions in the hopes that with focus, time, and energy, my intentions have come to fruition by the time the Full Moon arrives, or are at least heading in that direction. I journal my intentions to help me commit and map out necessary steps toward achieving them. A Full Moon arrives every 29.5 days roughly. Our next Full Moon is on May 23rd, and it’s known as the Flower Moon – it coincides with the blooming of many flowers in the northern hemisphere. But first things first – focusing inward and letting go of things that no longer serve. Can you tell that I love talking about the moon? There are some things I’m working on letting go of in order to conserve my energy. Unfortunately, socializing is one of them. So less time with groups of people. Solitude is restorative – another reason I avoided the gym, or perhaps an excuse not to go???
Wherever you are in the world, I’m wishing you a very good and healthful week. Thanks again for following/subscribing to my blog. May you look inward and let go of that which no longer serves 🙂 🌖 🌕 🌔
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Musings of a Taiwanese American Adoptee 
Every year, I know when it’s the warm months because of the way the moon shines through my livingroom window – it’s always such a welcome sight! I’m saddened to read about your struggle with being tired and I can only imagine how much energy you have to expend. On the other hand, it’s inspiring that you still maintain a gym schedule despite your other obligations. I enjoyed reading this post and i also hope that this month brings you the grace and resolution to let go of things that don’t contribute to your happiness! Mike
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Thanks so much, Mike 🙂 I appreciate it. I hope things do change in the near future, including a schedule that’s less taxing.
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Very good advice! I can really relate to your work/life conundrum. This post could be a page out of my old journals. In those days, I was both a runner and a bodybuilder. The gym was a huge part of my life. But I, too, take solace in solitude at times and I understand that need, too. Don’t be too hard on yourself. If you need the time to yourself, take it. Go for a run. Or eat ice cream. Whatever. 😉 I had a mentor who would never work in his professional (shamanic) capacity during the waning moon. He held it as a time of rest and regeneration. Your body might resonate with this as well.
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Thank you! Yes, I spend most of my weekends in solitude these days. I have to in order to prepare for the next week. It certainly is a conundrum that I hope is temporary. If I had the gift of entrepreneurship, I’d take that route.
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This, too, shall pass. A mentor once advised me to “be who you are where you are” as much as possible. Whatever sense of your own vision you have, trust that it has a life of its own and wants to be fulfilled through you. It isn’t really our job to figure out HOW it will come to be, the means are endless and complex beyond our knowing. Our job is to insist on our vision of who we are and to trust that vision. That advice has served me well over the years (and I no longer do work I don’t enjoy). The Universe thrives on each person’s unique contribution, which can only be made when we are true to our selves. Start anywhere you can. 🙂
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I love this. Thank you ❤
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Having my birthday in July means that the moon has always been with me. I think the journey inward will be a rewarding one for you. I know exactly what you’re speaking of.
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