i’m moving
smiling through my day
as though i’m fine
keeping myself in check
like the massive hole in my heart
is nothing at all

containing it
so i don’t bleed out

you’ve been here before
why the same old recklessness?
no more lessons please
i’ve had enough

here i am resisting the turn
though i know it’s the medicine

the light is still distant
yet there is something on the horizon
something new
a release

honor your losses
let your heart bleed
and don’t ask the present to be different